Everything Happens for a Reason

There is a lot happening in my life that feels incredibly unfair, and yet because of my spiritual practice and growth it is all alright.

Do I always enjoy it?  No!

I believe the adage, "everything happens for a reason".  I used to add, yes and that reason is that I am an idiot or I made a bone-head decision.  I didn't always recognize the deeper meaning behind everything that I do and all that comes into my experience.

I was having a conversation with one of my beautiful spiritual teachers in this life, Barbarah Nicoll, and she spoke about how we live in fields of agreement, and the fields allow for some things to happen, and restrict others.  She had been a colleague of mine when I worked at the SelfDesign Institute.  She was instumental in bringing me into the institute, and she also experienced some of the abuses that one member imposed on so many of us there.  

I had shared with her a conversation and how I had wanted to speak my truth but wasn't given the chance.  She explained that there was no way I could speak that into the space, because on the spiritual and energetic level there was a complete block.  There was no agreement to allow that in.

When I made the decision to shut down the two houses that made up the center of the Community House, I was devistated.  One thing that kept sticking in my mind was a little bit of a song Melody had sang.  I often find that my intuition speaks to me in song.  It was just the line, "You weren't allowed".  

Finally after days of this song being stuck in my head, I reflected on the line.  Yes, indeed, I wasn't allowed.  The space was not ready for what I was bringing.  But, I did energize the space, and started my work on the field of agreement.  Now is the time to start to build that field, and attract those who share the same goals.

Everything happens in God's timing.  The reasons for things may not be know in the moment, or I may never fully understand.  I can let go of the hurts and fogive others who are seemingly against me and realize, they are evolving and acting out their parts in this drama.  And most importantly, I can trust the greater wisdom of all things unfolding, and walk with peace and purpose towards my goals.