Less Consuming, More Creating

The other morning, I sat watching Youtube Shorts.  Most were wholesome and made me feel positive emotions towards the shared stories.  Grandpa Reacts was one thread that came up several times.  A split screen showing grandpa's reaction to heartwarming posts, texts, email and the like.  

​I get nervous about wasting time watching shorts, so I kept my eye on the clock. When I looked up I saw it had only been about 10 minutes, I thought to myself, I can watch a bit more.

The next time I looked at the clock an hour had gone by.  I felt kindof disgusted with myself.  For this New Year, I really want to spend less time consuming content, and more time creating content.  

Creating is what we are meant to do.  We are creators.  What we create is what we imprint on this world.  What do you want to create for your life?  This year for New Year's Day we are coming together to create a clear vision of what our heart is calling us to do in this New Year.

This new  Creative Purpose Journal, starts by asking you to tap into your heart's desire.  What do you really want to experience?  What do you want to create?

What I desire right now more than anything, is some success.  It has felt like a series of failures in my life over the past 4 years.  So much frustration, and the feeling of little support.  All of my work to create lcving community seemed like a huge flop.  I want to see some success for my efforts!

But is this even a goal?  I really wonder.  I actually think that is not a goal, but a consequence or outcome of working towards creating something worthy of success.  I had the same problem with my original vision of the Community House Network.  Starting with my heart's desire for loving community.

Looking now at my original vision of creating Loving Community and the start of the Community House Network, I can see the issue.  My desire to see loving community was met at every turn with conflict and competition.  At the end of those first four years, my number one conclusion was that Loving Community was not a goal.  That it was beyond my reach to create loving community.

Well now I am at the same roadblock...asking myself the question, "Is success a goal, or simply an outcome?"  

So I decided to focus on what I can create.  I can create books, blogs, curriculum.  I can create paintings, artwork, songs and plays.   I can even create a non-profit, or a business.   These are the things I will create.  All of them will be pointing me towards my bigger values of Freedom and Brotherhood. 

I can also support other's in their creative goals, and maybe, just maybe, these will lead to loving community.  What else would someone do with their time than to create things that lead us to a path of connection and purpose.

I am greatful for this new year and new chance to embrace my creative gifts and call to all the creators out there to do the same.  Just create without judging.  A year of this practice is sure to bring some beautiful inner truths out into the world.