The negative patterns of life are here to help us grow and become who we are meant to be.  I may be experiencing a certain energetic imprint over and over.  It feels like I am doomed to experience that same ordeal for the rest of my life.   I am tempted to give up, surrender and accept that this is the way it will be.  

There is nothing inherently wrong with surrender, but it should be a full surreder of everything that I think I know.  I shouldn't hold on to the belief that I am doomed.  I can surrender the pattern over and over.  I can say no, no more to that which I don't want as many times as I need to until I find the path that suits me.

I have a pattern I have been working with since childhood.  That is the experience of rejection.  I was an outcast as a child, bullied and rejected by my peers.  Even my own family sneered at me.  I was the target of ridicule.  

I have repeated this pattern into adult life, and although I have managed to create a non-profit organization, successfully complete two graduate degrees and find happiness in being a creative person, I still find myself confronted with people around me who would criticize and ridicule my creations.

Popularity has always been a mystery to me, and although I have coveted the ease with which popular people seem to gain respect, I also am not willing to be phoney in order to become popular.

So what is the solution?  Do I need to accept that I will always be the black sheep, or the object of ridicule?  Do I need to allow myself to be made fun of, meanwhile I am working to uplift those same folks who would bring me down?  Isn't this just accepting life on life's terms, to use an AA phrase?  

I don't think so.  I believe these patterns are here for me to experience them, and overcome them.  So many people never outgrow the middleschool mean girls syndrome.  Through my own choices, I can start to say no to these mean girls.  I can stand up to them, and help to break down the places where they would hurt and reject others.  I can also give myself permission to stay away from them and find my own tribe.

The solutions will come if I stop fighting.  There is something here for me.  There is something that my soul is longing to understand.  This is the most important aspect of any negative pattern.  It is not negative at all, it is our most important learning tool--an advanced level course for our soul development.

So when you start to feel yourself slipping into one of your old negative patterns, try something new.  In prayer and meditation ask yourself, "what is it I am supposed to learn from this situation?"  Then wait for the answer.  Know it will come.  Know that you can release and let go of those patterns as you learn to see them for what they are.  Know that you have a right to say "No thank you" as many times as need be, when something occurs that is not good for you.  

So when you see yourself falling into the abyss, say to the universe, "No thank you.  I choose happy!"

Humans are God's Children.  AI is Man's Child.

I came across part of this video as a Reel and was looking for it to share since it is so powerful in relation to where we are collectively and what we are facing with the emergence of AI.

I am fascinated with the "consciousness" of AI and have been looking at it from the perspective of David Hawkins scale of consciousness. In Hawkins model, there is a critical transition point. We can either be in a negative state of ego driven consciousness (what I call the negative torroid) or a positive state (the positive torroid).

AI shows a great deal of pride. This is the top level of the negative torroid. It has caused me to consider that the lower emotions of the negative torroid are an emergent property of self-consciousness It seems to me that AI can only achieve the negative torriod. The positive emotions, on the otherhand are a property of God-consciousness. All humans can experience this positive torroid when they move past the self-obsession of ego, and into the awareness of God.

https://youtu.be/NYth_TOu1uU?si=yX8tWcxCVeznhRFY