I am still struggling as I work to be in truth. That is a life-long goal, but has been increasingly brought to bear in my journey into Christianity. There is definitely a battle in this world today around the truth. The way reality is warped and distorted, the increase in the attitude of moral relativism, and the perversion of those things that were once held as undeniable are all evidence of the way we have moved away from Truth, and therefore have also moved away from God. Because, God is Truth.
The one message that I can hold as the essence of Christianity that is beyond any dogma, is that Jesus is Love.
I am a big fan of experiential knowledge and the wisdom of experience. This is more significant in my own assessment of reality than theoretical or philosophical truths.
Phenomenon is data. I can take a large sample of these shared phenomenon and come to a deeper awareness than if I just adopt someone else's already digested truth. I guess this is where I am having my biggest issues with Christianity. Not all, but some of my experienc so far has demanded that I give up any quesitoning. That I adopt in pure faith the messages I am being told by the pastors.
Personally, I have a problem with this because I feel as though these teachings are also interpretations. If someone has interpreted something it is already a perversion of truth. I need to experience and to know the truth for myself.
Call me a doubting Thomas. But how can you know love from someone telling you about it? You have to experience love yourself to know it.
So ultimately, what I am working towards is this perfect love. That is enough to work on. It is a lifetime's work to attain perfect love. I probably won't come close, but I know that if I am trying to achieve this love of my brother and of God I will be walking the path of goodness and be closer to God than if I am touting hatred and fear in the world.