Pride Before the Fall

In the model of human consciousness created by David Hawkins, pride is the highest negative vibrational state.  What does it mean?  It is at the top of the negative toroid.  So interesting the saying "Pride cometh before the fall".  In his consciousness model, the negative energies created a field that feeds into itself.  At the top of the negative, the only place to go is down.

Pride then is a trap.

The associated emotion with pride is scorn, and scorn is so hurtful to those around it.  It creates a sense of shame and unworthiness.  It pushes people down, or puts them in their place, which is of course, below pride.

Pride is competitive.  It is from a form of division.  It is a form of idenitification with the small self, the ego.

In moving up the scale of consciousness, I am becoming more connected to my higher Self, my divine self.   I am starting to see my interconnectedness with the whole.

It seems to me our collective consciousness is trapped at this level of pride, We are all in this ego game of proving our individual worth.  Until we can collectively move past pride and scorn we will never become who we are meant to be.  The emotion of pride is only a small element of the problem.  The negative judgment, and minimizing others associated with scorn is what really causes the havoc.  Holding others down causes all of us to be diminished.

I think here of the concept of UBUNTU, and my favorite speech from Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. 

Ubuntu can be translated:
 "I am because we are" also "I am because you are"

This conecpt is related to the interconnectedness of humanity.

Martin Luther King expressed it as:
“In a real sense all life is inter-related. All men are caught in an inescapable network of mutuality, tied in a single garment of destiny. Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly. I can never be what I ought to be until you are what you ought to be, and you can never be what you ought to be until I am what I ought to be...
This is the inter-related structure of reality.”― Martin Luther King Jr., Letter from Birmingham Jail: Martin Luther King Jr.'s Letter from Birmingham Jail and the Struggle That Changed a Nation: Library Edition

I have been taking a course with the Transformative Learning Foundation
The course provides experiential learning using Rudolf Steiner's 12 sense as the framework.  This past week we covered the sense of Movement.  We were asked to recollect how we moved as a child, then as a teenager and then as a young adult.  We shared our experiences and insights and then were asked to draw our inner experience of moment now.  

I initially felt this upward movement very light, with the color orange, but it was immediately followed by downward forces, in purple.  Then the most crystalized moment was the use of black, first to define a central energy point within myself, indicated by the triangle and the eye, and then a central channel, the desire to move upward and break free from the binds.  The black at the bottom represents the feeling of being chained or attached to the negative.

The breaking away from the judgment and scorn of others has been a theme in my life.  In my expression of moment it went like this...

As a child:
Shy, timid, hiding, moving away from the group.
Moments of bursting forth with enthusiasm, shining,
Being pushed down.
Return to hiding.

As a Teen:
Stomping, Pushing, Mosh Pit.
Hands On Hips
Destruction.

As a Young Adult:
Steady, head down, determined
Resolute, quick, looking over shoulder
Leaping forth, joyful expression
--unreceived--
Keep moving, independent, dancing by myself
alienated...disjointed...missing connection...no partners.

What was so revealing is that I have come a far way, but also that I can go back into any of these phases when I am triggered by a life experience, especially the scorn of others.

But I realize today, it is all an important part of my souls unfolding.  The goal is to move into the higher states.  Dr. Hawkins found that those who were spiritually advanced were no longer sensitive to others' negativity.  Wow, that would be great!