I completed my first full 108 Sun Salutations, and was highly energized afterwards. In fact, I had difficulty sleeping for two days following the session. Something that was particularly impactful was the manner in which the practice affected my breathing. I was suddenly conscious of my breath. Not just occasionally conscious, but it seemed constantly conscious. This may seem like a good thing, but truthfully, it made me feel like I was laboring, or forcing my breath.
I was reminded about the connection between breathing and consciousness. I recalled all the beautiful experiential knowledge I gained during my experience at UQAM in Somatics. One of our texts, Bone, Breath, and Gesture, edited by Don Hanlon Johnson, really changed my life (check out his interview on breathing if you like here.)
I pulled the book off my bookshelf again, and the section by Carola Speads particularly spoke to me. Carola has written beautifully on finding the natural breath. She encourages us to first notice how the breath responds to all sorts of life experiences (emotional, or mundane). It is changing constantly. The goal is to come back into the state of natural breathing as quickly as possible.
Before we can move into natural breathing, we have to recognize how and when we are breathing in less beneficial ways (i.e. shallow, rapid, breath holding). So first we develop conscious awareness, then we discover how to move back into the deep natural breath through a process of experimentation.
To proceed Carola first distinguishes between breathing experiments, vs exercises.
"Most physical education systems use exercises to achieve their aims. These involve executing predetermined, fixed sequences of activities. Improvement is expected to be gained by repetition. The more you repeat the exercises, the better, supposedly the result.
"Such a mechanistic approach is futile as far as breathing is concerned...Breathing varies continuously, automatically and perfectly adjusting to our activities, provided we do not interfere. Though we often do interfere with these adjustments, we cannot inhibit these changes altogether...
"Breathing...changes not only with physical activity, but also with every emotional impact...
"We cannot 'make' breathing as we can 'make' a movement. Breathing can only be provoked, coaxed, induced to change on its own. This can be done by certain beneficial stimuli. After providing a stimulus we must try to let the reactions to it develop as freely as possible. These reactions will be involuntary. They happen to us: we cannot make them; we can only try to let them through. This way of working with breath is what is called experimenting."
Here is a quick run down on Carola Speads experimenting breath.
1. Provide a light stimulus
2. Allow the body to respond
3. Wait for the body to respond
4. Notice the response
5. Try the stimulus again
6. This is experimenting not exercising
She also reminded me about how my consciousness is directly attached to my breathing. I particularly notice this in relation to the "pause" I remember playing with this during those years and noticing how my thinking found clarity during the pause. It is pretty fascinating.
All breath work, according to Speads, has to occur in a natural way, there can be no forcing, or that could simply make things worse. But for me, recovery of the natural breath came with the use of a few deep sighs whenever I was feeling tension. Thank you Carola.
As this month's focus on the physical body comes to an end, I invite you to begin to bring awareness to your breath. The connection to consciousness is fascinating and uniquely human. More will certainly be revealed.
I have started the 108 Sun Salutations Challenge and so far I have only gotten up to 54. Mainly because I just feel like that is enough. Please join us at the Community House for our Embodied Awareness sessions at 11:11 Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. We have been listening to Rudolf Steiner's How to Know Higher Worlds while stretching. My favorite part though, is that after the stretching we have spent time sharing our thoughts on the book. It is kind of like an embodied book club!
For those engaging in the 108 Sun Salutations challenge who are wanting a way to keep count that may be more meaningful than simply trying to hold a number in your head, I have adapted the prayer of St Francis of Assisi as utilized in the Meditation on Twin Hearts into 27 phrases. Each phrase should be meditated on for one Sun Salutation cycle.
1. Lord, make me an instrument of your peace (feel yourself an instrument, a clear channel)
2. That where there is darkness (sense any darkness in the world-- feel the desire to change it)
3. Let me sow light (feel yourself a beam of light, light flowing out of each fingertip, from the tip of your toes to the top of your head, you are light)
4. That where there is sadness (feel the sadness of those you love, know it can be taken from them)
5. Let me sow joy (feel the joy of all those miracles in your life)
6. That where there is doubt (feel the way doubt holds us back from standing in our abilities, from living in the world we desire)
7. Let me sow faith (feel yourself and all those around you let go of their doubt and stand as open vessels for God's truth to flow through)
8. That where there is despair (feel the despair, care enough to want to change this)
9. Let me sow hope (know that hope is the start of the process of moving towards the light).
10. May every person, every being be blessed (send blessings to the world, every being large and small, even in the higher and lower worlds)
11. With divine LIGHT (sense the light of knowledge, this is your crown chakra)
12. With divine LOVE (feel your heart chakra opening and blessing the world)
13. With divine POWER (feel your solar plexus chakra filled with power, this is our good action in the world, see yourself and other people doing good things together to make the world a better place).
14. May every person every being be blessed (bless the world).
15. With a better life (see the lives of everyone around you becoming better and better).
16. Lord help me seek not to be consoled (help me to let go of seeking solice, let go of self-pity)
17. As to console (see yourself comforting others).
18. To be loved (see yourself letting go of the desperate need for others affections and attentions, knowing that you are love)
19. As to love (open yourself as a channel of love, as you send love out into the world know you are a channel of God's divine love).
20. To be understood (let go of needing to be right, of needing others to see things your way, of needing others to understand you).
21. As to understand (see yourself listening deeply to others, understanding them, and understanding the whole big picture of our shared purpose).
22. For it is in giving (see yourself giving generously of yourself in all areas of your life)
23. That we receive (see how your giving comes back to you many many times as you become a channel for all that you give, including money. Money flows to and through you to do and bring more goodness into the world * you may focus on your basic chakra here as it is associated with financial and material wellbeing)
24. It is in forgiving (see yourself letting go of old hurts and truly forgiving those who have hurt you knowing we are all here to learn and grow)
25. That we are forgiven (see how your letting go opens up to seeing our connectedness, how we all help each other grow).
26. It is in dying (see the material world for what it is, how it is temporary)
27. We are born into eternal peace (see how the spiritual world is eternal).
This sequence can be performed 4 times in order to complete the 108 Sun Salutations.
Here is a great video from Anita Moorjani.
I have had many spiritual teachers (living and dead) during the past 20 years or so. The internet has allowed me to connect to teachers far and near. First there was Rudolf Steiner, then Master Co, disciple of GMCKS, founder of Pranic Healing, then Jennifer McLean, Debra Wayne, Christof Melchizedek, Matt Mantara and Gene Ang, just to name a few.
Gene comes from a scientific background, like I do. His training in neuroscience provided a grounded approach to his spirituality. Rudolf Steiner was also a scientist and philosopher first, and a spritualist second. In fact Steiner called his approach Spiritual Science.
Consciousness Explorations is intended to allow each of us to explore together the qualities of our conscious experience that show us the nature of reality. We are each scientists on the journey of understanding ourselves. We are scientists doing experiments in our own lives. This view of ourselves and our lives has the effect of taking some of the pressure off. As scientists we are objective, observing the effects of our different approaches. If our approach to life doesn't give us the results we are looking for, we redesign the experiment and try again, always taking note of the effects of each effort.
From Pema Chodron's Book "Becoming Bodhisattvas"
When we approach life as an experiment, we're willing to try it this way and that way because, either way, we have nothing to lose. This immense flexibility is something I learned from the example of Trungpa Rinpoche. His enthusiasm enabled him to accomplish an amazing amount in his life. When some things didn't work out, Rinpoche's attitude was "no big deal." If it's time for something to flourish, it will; if it's not time, it won't.
The trick is not getting caught in hope and fear. We can put our whole heart into whatever we do; but if we freeze our attitude into for or against, we're setting ourselves up for stress. Instead, we could just go forward with curiosity, wondering where this experiment will lead. This kind of open-ended inquisitiveness captures the spirit of enthusiasm, or heroic perseverance.
Well, I am at a crossroads with this coursework. People are so pressured by the demands of life (including myself) that it is difficult to find the time to come together for spiritual practices. It is possible, though, through the internet to make these consciousness exploration "experiments" available for individuals whenever they are able. So in the spirit of treating life as an experiment, If one way isn't working, try another. We can always find ways to meet synchronously again as it feels right. Feeling the path into life's most powerful streams is how to live in alignment with the highest expression of one's self.
So for the next 6 months, the activities for the Aligning with Your Divine Blueprint will be posted online. Our first month's exercise will be to notice our physical being, and our physical surroundings. Then each month we will move our attentions to one of the higher subtle bodies (etheric, astral, mental, causal, divine).
Check out the framework of the course here. This page will then lead you to the exercises for the month. Happy New Moon!
Happy Summer Solstice. Today, Consciousness Explorations will be starting an in person movement and meditation program. This will meet from 11:11 to 12:12 Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. We will be using movements from Thomas Hannah's Somatics, Yin Yoga, and other gentle approaches that work to awaken our senses to the world around us. Hopefully we will have some guest visitors to share their own gifts.
To begin we will do silent stretching while listening to Rudolf Steiner's beautiful text "How to Know Higher Worlds".
I have been feeling rather "crunchy" and it seems that my physical body often reflects my emotional state. That stiffness and lack of fluidity translate so quickly into a kind of irritability in my emotional and mental being as well.
This will also be the kick-start to our next course offering.
Aligning with Your Divine Blueprint.
This offering draws you through a sequential awakening of your different "bodies". Physical, Etheric, Astral, Mental and Causal with the last month focused on the Divine as we will be entering the Holy Days at the end of our time together.
Please do join us for any and all of our upcoming programming.
We are entering the final month of the creativity course. So maybe some of you find it odd to start the project at the end of the road. I believe that before we jump into a project, we need to learn how to connect to the Creative Self, to allow more creative inspiration to become a part of our daily life, and to remove the fears and blocks that keep us from connecting to this higher Creative Self.
Once we become connected to the Creative Self, now it is the time to direct my focus toward bringing something new into the world.
So for the final month we will make a first step towards stepping on the road of bringing forth something our soul has been longing to create. What is it that you truly desire to create? What is the project you want to see manifested? Let's use this new moon to plant the seed of success!
For this new moon session we will clarify our goals, in part by understanding the audience. We will then make a commitment to taking some real steps in the 3D world towards actualizing those goals.
Join us Thursday at 4:30 CST.
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Cosmic Creativity: Art is an Echo of the Creative Force the Birthed the Galaxies. Creativity is the way that the Cosmos Evolves and Communicates with Itself. - Alex Grey
As I am preparing for our next session together, I have come across a Ted Talk by Alex Grey. What an incredible gift he has in expressing the spiritual nature of reality through visionary art.
Check him out here:
"Visionary art matters because the mystical visionary experience of the Artist is the most direct contact we have with the divine. All sacred art and religious traditions are founded on this mystic state. The best currently available technology for sharing the mystic visionary experience is a well-crafted artistic rendering by an eye-witness"
We can say this to be true of all of the inner states. The artistic rendering of these provides a window into the emotional, soul-based and spiritual dimensions of our reality.
When we do this, we can take a look at what is going on with a new perspective. What a powerful tool for us all.
The point of Consciousness Explorations is to help us learn to work with our consciousness in an effective way. When we can do this we can live a life we want to live and create a world we want to live in. Learning to work consciously with our thoughts and emotions is perhaps on of the most important goals of our lives. So what about FEAR?! Is there a way to work effectively with fear?
Here is Eckart Tolle’s take on the subject. https://youtu.be/LiEU84nHEcY
Throughout history there have been examples of fears causing people to go mute. In fact, our nervous system is designed that way. When we experience intense fear, a region of the brain called Broca’s area, completely shuts down. This region is responsible for our ability to speak. So in fear, we become mute. We lose our voice.
Fear has the power to control, and to throw us off course. It draws us into what we don’t want to create. The compelling power of this spooky world wherein we have no control, is inexplicable. Fear causes us to make decisions that are not in our highest good. In fear we struggle to fix things that may not even exist. A life of fear-based decisions will leave us wondering what to do next. It is one based on putting out fires (usually imaginary fires at that) of trying to survive rather than on striving towards a bigger vision with persistent faith and conviction.
Fear is one of the few emotions that I can find little use for. Anger seems to allow a focused energy, anxiety, even, can be seen as a type of motivating force, but fear always seems to isolate me and leave me feeling paralyzed. I wonder if any of you can see something of value in fear.
Join us this week as we explore ways to over-come fear using our creative energies.
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Desire is a powerful part of the creative process. It is the emotional energy that we feel in the heart felt performance. I remember not so long ago I attended a workshop with Mark Earlix. He is a natural healer that I had been introduced to when we were seeking alternative therapies for my step-mom Sue as she battled cancer.
It was one of the most unusual workshops I have ever attended. He told stories throughout the several days we spent together, and then we were given exercises to move ourselves into the state of healing and manifesting consciousness. He said desire was one of the elements that could create a powerful state of manifestation. (notably he also spoke about manifesting out of anxiety--although that seems a less preferable way to go.)
I was able to tap into this, and I see how powerful it is in shifting my state of consciousness, transforming unwanted thought patterns, and how especially effective it is in the act of creating!
Here I share with you a morning song writing process where I discuss this idea.
Hope you enjoy it.
It All Started with Seeing the Goodness in You
Here is the finished song....
This month we are inviting you to engage in a creativity challenge. This extends the open challenge to give a focus to the creative energy.
As we are all creators, creating the life and things we experience though our thoughts and emotions, why not start to shift our focus, and create the life we desire.
I am listening to Josiah Brandt read Neville Goddard, and I am particularly fascinated by this section...
I recall working with a therapist some years back, who talked to me about how my vibration was attracting the state of my existence, and that I may have discovered ways to occasionally move into those positive states I desired, but that the majority of the time I was in a low, depressed, and despairing state of mind.
She called it a flickering light.
So how do we shift and stay in that higher state? I have found that the shorter my visits to the lower thought plane (or low road as we talked about in our last class) the more I feel myself, and my strength in that space of the high road.
But what about those particularly sticky life areas that just seem to drop us down and we can't get out? I have found I can use those spaces as jumping of places. As reminders to focus on the way I want the world to be.
One particularly difficult experience I have had was with being taken advantage of. When I couldn't stop the negative thoughts and emotions, I turned to a powerful tool. I created an affirmation with a sigil. The affirmation was "I am surrounded by people who are whole - Honest, Integrous, Trustworthy" Then I created a sigil with the first letter of the words. I also created a movement based on Eurhythmy and wrote a song. When I became triggered I would sing the song to myself. It seemed to work.
Now I am sharing this with you in hopes that you too can find a way to shift and remain in a higher, positive state so that you may become the expression of yourself you seek to experience in the world.
Living a creative, spontaneous life can mean a lot of things to different folks. I recently was introduced to the book Improv Wisdom: Don't Prepare, Just Show Up. It has a wonderful way of putting in words how so much of my life has been lived.
She has 13 maxims she outlines in her guide to living a creative life.
1. Say Yes
2. Don't Prepare
3. Just Show Up
4. Start Anywhere
5. Be Average
6. Pay Attention
7. Face the Facts
8. Stay on Course
9. Wake Up to the Gifts
10. Make Mistakes, Please
11. Act Now
12. Take Care of Each Other
13. Enjoy the Ride
These are great ways to live a beautiful, spontaneous, heart centered life.
Why not choose one to do today!
For our next session, bring your creative project and heart felt intentions. Monday April 26th, 7PM CST. OR just show up with an open heart and curious mind.
This is considered by some to be the most powerful full moon of the year. Let's harness the energy and charge up our creative projects together.